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Just got off the phone with SOB. I told him that yes, I do still love him but his drama is exhausting. He told me to stay away from his family and friends. All of them. And I am not allowed at SD's sweet sixteen. Then he called me back, apologized for being an asshole but reiterated the same message. He doesn't get it. I am done. I am officially done with answering phone calls from him, mainly because he calls when he is high (of course I don't know that for a fact but you should hear him).
Anyway, I hope this is over. I will truly miss SD if it is but I can't take the bullshit anymore. I can't take his bullshit. And I don't want to expose any future boyfriends to it. Truthfully, I am partially at fault. In my mind, I keep thinking how important I am to SD. And I am sure on some level she will always care for me but she is now 16. She is also blindly attached to her mom in Camden and there's not a thing I can or would do to change that. I know the feeling. Deeply.
Anyway, figured I'd get that off my chest before it manifests into a deep depression.
Anyway, I hope this is over. I will truly miss SD if it is but I can't take the bullshit anymore. I can't take his bullshit. And I don't want to expose any future boyfriends to it. Truthfully, I am partially at fault. In my mind, I keep thinking how important I am to SD. And I am sure on some level she will always care for me but she is now 16. She is also blindly attached to her mom in Camden and there's not a thing I can or would do to change that. I know the feeling. Deeply.
Anyway, figured I'd get that off my chest before it manifests into a deep depression.