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Jul. 15th, 2001 11:47 pmYeah, that's it. The feeling of everything and nothing all at once. Six miles my feet have suffered from walking under the hot sun and the pouring rain.
I feel like a disciple, but what am I really walking for? Talking about horses and electric fences, high school and lost loves. I stopped thinking that he will leave me. When he mentioned staying with his grand 'rents, I thought nothing of it. Maybe this reality of circumstanciality will be the real thing. Not like chocolate kisses and fake promises.
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Added 11/21/05
I spent that night in a women's shelter. I had to shower in a communal shower. All this, all for love. And freedom. And I'll never forget the pep talk I received from the lady, about being able to succeed. That day, I almost believed Khary still loved me.
I feel like a disciple, but what am I really walking for? Talking about horses and electric fences, high school and lost loves. I stopped thinking that he will leave me. When he mentioned staying with his grand 'rents, I thought nothing of it. Maybe this reality of circumstanciality will be the real thing. Not like chocolate kisses and fake promises.
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Added 11/21/05
I spent that night in a women's shelter. I had to shower in a communal shower. All this, all for love. And freedom. And I'll never forget the pep talk I received from the lady, about being able to succeed. That day, I almost believed Khary still loved me.