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Men Suck ASS
May. 17th, 2004 01:12 amWell, I should have expected this to happen. I made a promise that I would be nice to all carryout customers. Well, funny things happen. After the usual rush of customers for dinner, it quieted down a bit. Then another line of people came to the window, and wouldn't you know it? The power went out for an hour. Yes, my luck. I had to put away all the gallons of ice cream only to be told to bring them back out. But that is OK, I really was stewing about the men in my life. One particular man. I will call him Eddie.
Eddie and I started to speak the day after I got home from my vacation, April 10th. I just stopped speaking to him tonight, ending it with an email. It just became too weird for me. He wanted to have sex with me over the phone all the time. He would call me twice a week to hear me moan. He would text me all the time asking for sex and "lovin'". He requested several naked pictures of various body parts. When I first met him, I dreamed of being his girlfriend. Now, I realize that he has no care for me in the world, and every time I tried to talk to him about anything other than sex, he was very short with me. Very upsetting now that I think about all the time I wasted with him. The final straw came when he told me that he was talking to 2 other women. Like I was nothing to him. And I never was. Sad, after all the feelings I devloped for him. Well, now that I started to care for him, I am not going to waste any more time. I had to end it this way. He would have tried to convince me back to phone sex or worse. And I am sorry but I care too much for that boy just to sleep with him. And I care too much for myself as well. I know I would have been depressed had I slept with him. I was already depressed to have done what I did. Well, I am glad I ended it now. Have to keep telling myself that. Will miss our talks, but I have to keep in mind that he was only nice that first night. Well, back to no sleeping with any man unless we are TOGETHER. I And I will feel better about myself. I want to be with one man. It felt good to be with Khary when I got to know his family. I felt like part of the family. Too bad he himself was screwed up. Also, Gary did the same thing; he introduced me to his family, and they did like me. I am not a bad person, and I know I deserve better than to be used for sexual purposes only. Sorry guys. I am worth more than that. Accept it or get out of the way.
Eddie and I started to speak the day after I got home from my vacation, April 10th. I just stopped speaking to him tonight, ending it with an email. It just became too weird for me. He wanted to have sex with me over the phone all the time. He would call me twice a week to hear me moan. He would text me all the time asking for sex and "lovin'". He requested several naked pictures of various body parts. When I first met him, I dreamed of being his girlfriend. Now, I realize that he has no care for me in the world, and every time I tried to talk to him about anything other than sex, he was very short with me. Very upsetting now that I think about all the time I wasted with him. The final straw came when he told me that he was talking to 2 other women. Like I was nothing to him. And I never was. Sad, after all the feelings I devloped for him. Well, now that I started to care for him, I am not going to waste any more time. I had to end it this way. He would have tried to convince me back to phone sex or worse. And I am sorry but I care too much for that boy just to sleep with him. And I care too much for myself as well. I know I would have been depressed had I slept with him. I was already depressed to have done what I did. Well, I am glad I ended it now. Have to keep telling myself that. Will miss our talks, but I have to keep in mind that he was only nice that first night. Well, back to no sleeping with any man unless we are TOGETHER. I And I will feel better about myself. I want to be with one man. It felt good to be with Khary when I got to know his family. I felt like part of the family. Too bad he himself was screwed up. Also, Gary did the same thing; he introduced me to his family, and they did like me. I am not a bad person, and I know I deserve better than to be used for sexual purposes only. Sorry guys. I am worth more than that. Accept it or get out of the way.
