Call Me......Weirdo

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asperger_syndrome

Well, ever since I was younger, people have always looked at me differently.  I have been the weirdo.  Strange.  Unusual.  DIFFERENT.  I have also been accused of being aloof, self-centered, and just disobedient (which is soooo funny, compared to the real me). I was placed in a "resource" class along with other "special needs" kids when I was in kindergarten.  Then, with no rhyme or reason, I was slowly integrated back into the school system.  I always had a speech therapist until I was in 6th grade; not for saying anything the "wrong" way, but for mumbling alot.  PS #20 has no idea what to do with me.  And I don't think they would now, either.

Funny. when someone mentioned this disease, this "syndrome" back in the ritual, I did not think such extreme behavior could be me.  But after some research, I realized that it was a "spectrum" disorder.  Which means I was a higher functioning level of the spectrum.  This just means that I am over-sensitive to people's emotions (I am still an empath, after all) and so I would try to pick up on different people's attitudes before it became a problem.  Such a learned behavior, which could have prevented a LOT of embarrassment in Junior high school.  I have listed a few of the MAIN issues.  Granted, some of us have some of these issues, and I do not have all of them.  Or, at least I try to either hide them or just "play a different character" around people I don't know.

( symptoms )

Yeah, so this is NOT meant as an excuse for any issues I currently may have.  But this does help me understand, and get over, the fact that I could never be a teacher.  Also, I understand now that, an issue I have been dealing with since I was a kid, I am NOT and NEVER was stupid.  Just different.  And, really, why be normal?