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simoriahDay 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Feeling like a useless fat tub of lard. Certain days I just look at myself and remind myself that nobody except "weird chubby chaser" people (I mean the hard core fetishers) will look at me. I mean, I do try to do something about it. And then I try to go one step further and fuck myself over. I gotta stop doing that. And maybe reopen my "Spark People" Account.
Oh, and forgiving myself for not using my college degree and NOT going back to "teaching" (I swear if one more person in my family asks, "Why don't you TEACH?" they will lose their head....) I know why now that will never work, I know that yes I am partially using the Spanish portion of the degree. I know that eventually I will consider teaching adults but....kids are cruel....too cruel. and I am too honest.
In general, I need to forgive myself for being...human. And an Aspie. Sometimes I forget I am. I mean, I have gotten to the point that I have accepted it, and I refuse to let it rule my life, and it only comes down to a point when there is an extreme point when I just...don't...get something that everyone else is cool with, or do things a little differently and people question me on it like I'm on crack...sorry but for me, YOU are the weirdo.
Feeling like a useless fat tub of lard. Certain days I just look at myself and remind myself that nobody except "weird chubby chaser" people (I mean the hard core fetishers) will look at me. I mean, I do try to do something about it. And then I try to go one step further and fuck myself over. I gotta stop doing that. And maybe reopen my "Spark People" Account.
Oh, and forgiving myself for not using my college degree and NOT going back to "teaching" (I swear if one more person in my family asks, "Why don't you TEACH?" they will lose their head....) I know why now that will never work, I know that yes I am partially using the Spanish portion of the degree. I know that eventually I will consider teaching adults but....kids are cruel....too cruel. and I am too honest.
In general, I need to forgive myself for being...human. And an Aspie. Sometimes I forget I am. I mean, I have gotten to the point that I have accepted it, and I refuse to let it rule my life, and it only comes down to a point when there is an extreme point when I just...don't...get something that everyone else is cool with, or do things a little differently and people question me on it like I'm on crack...sorry but for me, YOU are the weirdo.