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Cause I'm A LIAR!!!
May. 26th, 2004 10:13 pmWell, it is funny, the last few times that I have posted, I sat at this screen and drew a blank. It is not that I did not want to write anything but that I just did not know how to write it. Well, I am just going blurt out anything that comes out of my big mouth and if it offends people then I could give a shit. It is a good thing that certain people do not get the internet right now.
Well, my love life is in the shitter right now. Can't complain about much else. But that seems to be my main focus right now, since I am 27 and should be popping out kids right now I guess. Forget about the man. I picked up a single mothers guide the other day. Hope it is not a sign of things to come.
So sick and tired of seeing what I want slip right through my fingers. So tired of kissing so called princes and ending up with frogs. Then I think I end up with what I want and I am happy. Then I question the death out of everything he says and does thus squelching any flame of pssion that he has for me. If only he knew how much pain I have been through. Yes, it is not his fault. and I for one am not trying to put my pain on anyone. I realize that I need to work through it somehow and then forget about it. Each man is a different person and they will cause their own pain. Some men are nice, but when anyone is treated like crap they are going to develop an attitude. and nobody including me is perfect. When I say something it comes from my heart and I try desperately not to say anything to hurt anyone intentionally because that is my way. And I have to realize that I am a kind and concerned person and some people will take advantage of it. And some well most people will not find me attractive. This is really a good thing since I would rather not have all egotistical men liking me for only my body.
Besides there are other interests in my life. I want to get back into writing. I have been told recerntly that I did have a talent for it by a man who stands to gain nothing by being a liar.
Speaking of the head title, I had that song in my head the other day written by the Rollins Band. Good video. And it is sad that I cannot take anything for granted said by anyone anymore. They could lie just as easily as Khary. oh well, lets see how this last story plays itself out. Waiting for Johny to call back, whenever he gets off from his job. Juan is not coming, just got back from his job. Also, Eddie (mentioned in previous sessions) is due to call me back. But I would drop them all in a heartbeat if my prince comes. and boy am I due for a prince to come.
Well, my love life is in the shitter right now. Can't complain about much else. But that seems to be my main focus right now, since I am 27 and should be popping out kids right now I guess. Forget about the man. I picked up a single mothers guide the other day. Hope it is not a sign of things to come.
So sick and tired of seeing what I want slip right through my fingers. So tired of kissing so called princes and ending up with frogs. Then I think I end up with what I want and I am happy. Then I question the death out of everything he says and does thus squelching any flame of pssion that he has for me. If only he knew how much pain I have been through. Yes, it is not his fault. and I for one am not trying to put my pain on anyone. I realize that I need to work through it somehow and then forget about it. Each man is a different person and they will cause their own pain. Some men are nice, but when anyone is treated like crap they are going to develop an attitude. and nobody including me is perfect. When I say something it comes from my heart and I try desperately not to say anything to hurt anyone intentionally because that is my way. And I have to realize that I am a kind and concerned person and some people will take advantage of it. And some well most people will not find me attractive. This is really a good thing since I would rather not have all egotistical men liking me for only my body.
Besides there are other interests in my life. I want to get back into writing. I have been told recerntly that I did have a talent for it by a man who stands to gain nothing by being a liar.
Speaking of the head title, I had that song in my head the other day written by the Rollins Band. Good video. And it is sad that I cannot take anything for granted said by anyone anymore. They could lie just as easily as Khary. oh well, lets see how this last story plays itself out. Waiting for Johny to call back, whenever he gets off from his job. Juan is not coming, just got back from his job. Also, Eddie (mentioned in previous sessions) is due to call me back. But I would drop them all in a heartbeat if my prince comes. and boy am I due for a prince to come.
